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Monday, December 21, 2009
Never ending tears - part 3 @ 4:35 AM



this is the part 3. hope you guys enjoy reading it, hehe. the pain i felt has changed. i went to penang for four days. it was an adventure. haha not really act. i just wanted to tell what happened. i kinda depressed this three weeks. and now im me again. when i was eating the most delicious cha kuey teow in penang. fadilah texted me , she asked whether im ok or not. i told her about my story, and she gave me some advices. i started to think , whats the point if im thinking of someone who doesnt even thinking of me.  i was so stupid. i knew that i couldnt forget abt him but i'll keep in my heart always. its not that im forgetting him but its just to avoid the feelings so that i can learn to live without him, without his love. its been 3 weeks i suffered and not him. i cried almost everyday and i turned wild. thats the most stupidest thing ever, because he wouldnt care. i misses him but its just , i wondered if he misses me? how can i tell if that i live with pain, everyday , every sec , moment. thats not fair. life brings happiness and sadness too but it just have to balance. i wondered if one day , somehow i can love him like no one always do. care about him like heaven. its true , i put high hopes on you but its just another statement of sadness. i really wished you could be on my side everyday. but i knew it wont happen and never. its okay. i accept this challenged from god. i just have to keep praying and so on. im sorry , truly. i still love you and will always do. i'll be writing again. see you in part  4 (: 

love,
Aira

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